This year I decided to learn Czech. In January I bought a course book, and two months later I started individual lessons with a teacher.
So far it has been an interesting journey with different emotions. Sometimes I was happy, other times unhappy.
Some days I wanted to go faster, but then I had other priorities. Other days I wanted to study harder, but then I had no energy.
During this process I discovered an interesting fact: I realized that the more I studied, the less I knew.
Because there is always something new to learn when you learn a language. It just never ends.
At first this realization was very frustrating. I felt really bad about my progress.
But then, fortunately, one day something changed.
I was still unhappy with my progress, but I also realized that I always felt good about myself right after I had finished a self-study session.
Now, there was an interesting thought! I quickly understood that I needed to use this emotion to motivate myself to keep going, to keep learning Czech.
That was the big breakthrough for me. Eventually I came to the following conclusion:
The goal to speak Czech (or in your case to speak English) is not the most important thing, but how you feel about yourself when learning a language is the most important thing.
So now, when I wake up, I want to study Czech. Because it makes me feel good about myself.
Even if I know that my Czech will never be perfect. But that’s not important.
What’s important, is that learning Czech has become part of my identity.
This gives me the ability to achieve all my Czech language goals in the future.
P.S. In this video I explain why identity building is important when you want to improve your English.